Lucid Dream #19, #20 & #21 !!
HEEEEELLLLLOOOOOOO ~~!!!
Haha! You'll thought you finally got rid of me didn't you? Well think again! For I'm back to share my lame life with you.
I missed you, you know. I mean.. Whenever I take a successful step in the journey of mastering my mind, there's no one to share with but you. Thank you for always being there. :hug:
Today! I shall share with you the story of a changing point in my life. It all started one day, not too long from my last reply. My mom needed me to deliver her somewhere later, yet I was sleepy. So I was lying on bed, fighting not to sleep, yet I want to relax. My guess is that I was performing WILD by coincidence. I could feel my body being relaxed, brain started to slow down, heart beat got in rhythm with my breathing... Then, my feelings started to surface. I was thinking about me dropping my semester, my inability to study, my lack of lucid dreams, feeling sad as I see what was happening to me. But then! As I was questioning my current state while simultaneously falling to sleep. It hit me! It hit me so hard! :holyshit: A voice in my head said (It's your will power).!!
I got up! Heart's pounding just if I just woke up from sleep, even though I don't think I reached sleeping. I was stunned from this experience. Who ever said that to me was really, really confident that this was my problem. My guess is that though I was fighting sleep, I had very minor access to the unconscious. That's when I started to remember it all. Previously, when I just started to learn Lucid dreaming, I used to really desire to have a lucid dream. And by real desire I mean I caused myself countless insomnia's, countless sleep paralyses, countless restless sleeps. All just so I can notice the dream when I'm dreaming. And I stopped having that desire. My successful lucid dreams in addition with my previous emotional state caused that burning desire to vanish.
I was like (OMG! Of course! It was my will power! It was my weak will power the whole time! The reason why I'm f**king my life up is because I can not force myself to do something I don't want to). After that day, I did some small researches about how to boost up will power. I found out that the best thing to do is to perform "useless tasks" as Dr. Stephen Laberges puts it. Perform some tasks that is useless, boring, while maintaining neutral/happy emotions. And man did that work out very good. I started to force myself to write down my journal in every single sleep. I started to read more, play less, sleep and wake up early, and reduced the times of... ummm... touching myself sessions. :oops:
Few days after the beginning of forcing myself to do stuff, things have changed. I gained more confidence, because now I have the feeling I can do anything. I feel smarter because of more reading. And of course, my dreams changed. I started to experience all kinds of dreams! Good, bad, action filled, sad, so funny that I woke up laughing, all kinds! (Except for nightmares) I even had a wet dream, boy has it been so long since I had this one :cackle:. I also experienced dreams where I was like (Am I dreaming right now ?!) but fail to gain lucidity. Fast forward few days, on 2nd of December to be exact, and I got my long waited 19th lucid dream. ^^
Even though it was lame and short and all I did was trying to release myself from something that was biding me, I'm so proud of it :). Because I deliberately choose that afternoon to have a nap and perform a WILD, but instead I achieved DILD, which is a win :D. On the 5th of December I had another Lucid dream! This time it had few smoochies in it :chuckle:.
I have one more lucid dream and another strange experience to share with you along with few questions, but that will be for another reply :(. Because I have to leave this instant. hopefully within the next 24 hours you will hear the rest of my story. Love you all ! :loveyou:
Tonight is the night fo.... I will quit saying this phrase in every reply. I will tell you why next time.
The story of Lucid Dream #21.
Greetings!
I'm so excited to tell you about this weeks dream experiences, I'm like bouncing on the chair right now! :yddd:
First of all I would like to apologize for breaking my promise. I wanted to reply within 24 hours from my last one but I couldn't due to housework. Also, I would like to severely apologize for Mr. FryingMan. Why you ask? Because actually he is the first one who told me about will power problems and advised me, long before my (inner?) told me. And I was like "Pffft, what does he even know about my life". Ohh Mr. FryingMan, How I regret questioning your wise advices. The next time if you told me "You need to sacrifice your whole family to the devil to get a lucid dream "My respond would be "Let the bloodshed begin for the glory of Satan!". :twisted:
And thank you Mr. fogelbise for your reply. ^.^
Can you believe I had another lucid dream?!:happyhappy: It was the night of my last reply and it was awesome! But first, the night of 11th of December :). So It was a long day, with total of 6 hours of driving time. I barley ate something that day. So when I went to sleep, I was like (I would love to have a lucid dream, but it's not likely to have one in the night's sleep). And boy was I wrong :). I dreamt that I was in a mall with mom and female cousin. For some reason my cousin gave me a balloon. She was like (Hey hold this for a sec). When I held it, gravity vanished for me :P. I was floating, in standing position, just like a space man in a spacecraft. When I landed on the other side of the mall, I wanted to catch up with them but by walking. I started walking and reached a dining area with few kids in it. I was like (Waaait a minute, what is this place? What is this mall? Am I dreaming right now?!).
Here's what's odd. I nose pinched myself and I promise you, it felt closed! I kept looking around and the light was dim. I said (I KNOW this is a dream, why is my nose closed?). I did the RC again, this time it was open! "There you go! Now I'm sure I'm in dream". I was fighting to keep my cool and remember my goals. Then I remembered that my goal was to give someone a kiss on the cheek. Innocent, non-sexual, small kiss on the cheek. I went to one of the kids, and he had cute eyes looking at me like if he was cautious about what I'm going to do. Reached his cheek and *Muah*. Kissed his cheek ^^. I then turned around and saw that the dining area now is crowded with people. I said to myself (Ok, done. Now what?). I somehow remembered my next goal! It was to ask the dream to be long.
I looked a bit upward and said "O' god of the dream, prolong the dream for me" three times. [God in Arabic doesn't only mean the holy being. It also means the person who is in charge. For example: The father of a house can be called the god of the house.] Upon finishing that phrase the third time, the dream got much more stable and clear! (To be honest, it wasn't very real looking. but real enough to be so much fun :) ). Now that I can't remember any more goals, the path was clear for the pervert in me to come out :D. I think I better put the rest in spoiler. :cackle: The whole lucid dream felt like a whole minute and few more seconds. :) [Which is almost the longest LD I ever had.]
The reason why I chose cheek kissing as a goal for my next lucid dream is because it's simple. It almost doesn't need any training like summoning or flying. And I wanted the dream to prolong itself because Mr. Robert Waggoner said in his book that dreams shall do whatever dreamer asks them to do. and I wanted to try that :).
Now if you excuse me, I need to leave this reply for now. I will try to continue my dream stories today, but my promises are weak so don't trust me :D. Before I go, there is a workbook of someone who can do WILDs easily, and I'm sure I will benefit from reading her workbook. But I lost her workbook :(. She always color her replays purple (I'm not so sure if she is indeed a woman). If this rings any bell to you please tell me. Thank you all for your time. <3
Strange experiences of 11th & 14th of December.
Hey all! :)
Mr. fogelbise, thank you for suggesting ~Dreamer~'s DJ. Unfortunately this isn't the person I was looking for, but I just quickly surfed her DJ and she rocks! I think she will be enough :). thanks for searching for me ^^.
I would love to talk about my #22 lucid dream, but because I'm currently in the university and I don't have much time, I will talk about more serious stuff. In the day of 11th of December (After I woke up from #21 Lucid dream) I was overwhelmed with the usual, happy feeling of experiencing a lucid dream ^^. I went through the morning normally then I got sleepy again. I was like (Well, time for nappy nap :3 . Hey! Let's attempt WILD for the 63578th time! I might succeed this time). I was downstairs, lied on sofa and tried to hold consciousness. I failed to achieve WILD but here's what happened:
I had what seemed like micro awakening, I was lying down watching the ceiling. I reached my nose hoping to be a false awakening, but nope. It was indeed micro awakening. closed my eyes, slept for few time, and eyes are open again. Everything is darker than it should, same ceiling view, reached my nose and viola! It was open and I was dreaming! I was too weak to move my dream body though. I was like paralyzed or something, yet I was so happy to achieve two lucid dreams in one day. Kept attempting to move but it seemed moving would cause to wake up. So I chose to stay stationary and close my dream eyes. Next thing I know, dream legs started floating :holyshit:. My dreaming mind was calm but scared a bit. Now my legs are almost to the ceiling and my head is being dragged along. I opened my dreaming eyes and now I'm back on the sofa lying on my back watching the ceiling!
Still paralyzed, I closed my eyes again. Legs started flying again! This time I was happy in the lucid dream and want to have fun, because this is actually the first time I fly in a lucid dream. With my eyes closed, I started to kick the wall to go forward, and my hand was on the wall so I don't hit my head. Basically I was like diving in room sized pool but full of air instead of water. Opened my eyes and I'm back lying down on sofa watching ceiling, and still dreaming! Closed my eyes, legs started to fly. This time, I deliberately waited for the legs to hit the ceiling then POW! Pushed myself hard with my legs, upside down, flying fast toward the ground. The ground wasn't there and I was flying super fast, with my eyes closed, in what felt like empty black space. I could feel my face being pushed by the air due to fast flying. I lost lucidity not so long after that last flight. The whole lucid dream felt like 45 seconds.
What a joyful, confusing ride that was. It wasn't normal dream with normal dream views and dream sensations. Yet I wasn't near awake. What the heck was that?!
In the night sleep of 14th of December, I had this strange experience too. It's 3:30am and I was like (Oh boy! an unplanned WBTB!) so I waited until about 4:30am to sleep. I dreamt that there was a crisis with alien lives involved. It was scary as the aliens were killing every human on sight! Not only that, but the aliens can disguise to look like a human! So I was scared from everyone. I was with my mom and we were running. Then it hit me (I'm dreaming!) yet, I didn't realize this was all in my head and I shouldn't be scared. Long story short, I got surrounded by human-like aliens and they were about to kill me.. by stabbing me with a pen. So I closed my eyes and told myself (If I close my eyes I will wake up). I close them but didn't wake up! And they stabbed me with the pen on my forehead, and it hurt me like hell :damnit:. The torture felt like long 6 seconds, and I thought it's all over. Only to get hit with this next dream.
I had false awakening. This time, I was tied to a wooden bed (with no mattress?). I was like (Oh no! It's another dream!) Still can't realize that its all in my head and I can't be harmed, so I was freaking out! All of a sudden, a black woman came to me and was standing to my side. I was telling myself (This is a dream, This is a dream ...) while she showed up a [Medical needle? I don't know what it's called in English]. It looked like it was filled with something. She looked at me and says (Is this yours?) I said no no I swear it's not mine! She got mad and proceeded to inject me with it saying (Yes it's yours!!) I somehow untied myself and held her hand away from chest. after few seconds of wrestling, she won and injected me with that stuff right between my heart and rips. I was screaming until she left her hand. It didn't seem that the substance has affected me in anyway (Guess she filled it with the wrong substance :D) But man did it hurt my chest. the pain was there even after I woke up. The pain in my chest and my forehead.
What were these experiences?? I wasn't sleeping yet I wasn't awake. Why I couldn't defend myself even though I was lucid? I'm not really sure if I should count them as successful LDs or not. I hope I never got stabbed in the forehead or chest again :(. (Or anywhere if that matters)